There is one thing I know for sure. I don’t have all this figured out yet about what happens when we die. I read for people every day who are wanting to hear from their loved ones and receive validation. People realize that their loved ones are still connected to them once their soul exited the body. I heard myself say yesterday “I don’t have a direct line to heaven.” Then I felt uncomfortable immediately with the words I just spoke and quickly followed with “Well maybe I do.” I do spend each day asking to hear from different loved ones of all nationalities from all over the world and even though there may have been a language difference in the body while on the planet it doesn’t seem to be a problem after death. Soul language is a language of feeling. It is a knowing that does not require words. I do hear and am clairaudient . The only language I speak is English, but I also do a lot of “sounds like…” and then phonetically I will pronounce what I am hearing.
I am saying all of this about how those in spirit communicate. Let me tell you about how they don’t communicate with me and what I have learned. When I ask to step into the energy of a specific person for a client that has booked an appointment the first thing I do is call in my guides, my angels and heavenly helpers and ask them to bring through the messages for this person. When I sit and pray and meditate receiving close to a blank screen, I know there is something amiss. I have learned through thousands of readings that we have a problem when I get nothing. Through faith I have learned I don’t have a problem, but there is a problem in the relationship between the deceased and the loved one coming for the appointment. I can step into that persons energy and know things or receive information I thank God that this is something I am now at ease about and no longer beat myself up over. If there are unspoken words from a quarrel or disagreement that happened between two people and one of them died, from what I have learned it is going to stay that way in some cases until we work those feelings of unresolved hurt and anger out. By working it out I mean asking for forgiveness from the other side. When we ask forgiveness from God, we need to know first of all we have gone within and forgiven ourselves for what ever we may be carrying around in a form of guilt and shame. Then thirdly we need to speak to that person on the other side and literally talk it out. I mean sit down and have a conversation with your loved one as if they were still here. I consider this spiritual work that is allowed in order for spiritual growth to occur. I do believe that when we die that our soul carries memory. I believe that includes the good and the bad. God gives us an opportunity to work that out even after we die.
Yesterday I had a man come to see me. He wasn’t up front with me from the moment he booked the appointment. I happened to answer the phone when he first called, and from the moment I heard his voice I instantly handed the phone off to my son. I didn’t like the vibration of his voice. Then after he books my son tells me that the man wasn’t comfortable booking through our regular booking system on line, and wasn’t going to secure his time through PayPal. I knew there was a needle in the haystack here. I allowed him to book anyway with me not feeling good about it from the beginning.
My children and my grandchildren are very psychic. I was texting with my grand daughter Cait the day of his appointment. I told her I had an appointment soon and had to go. She sent me a text back and said “Nana please get your money up front because I feel as though he isn’t going to pay you.” There were other texts from her even saying “…do it for me and ask to be paid up front.” I never ask for money up front because I want to be certain I did my job and I am not going to take money from anyone if I feel they have not benefitted from the reading.
It takes my breath away right now thinking of people whose intent is not good. They will not have a good reading because my guides and angels will not allow messages to come through. There has to be an equal exchange of energy in order for one to receive what they are looking for. It isn’t because I am so brilliant or such a wonderful mystic, but simply we are dealing with God here. This information doesn’t come from me. If you come into to my energy wanting to receive a message or healing, you better come with an open heart and willing to shed a few tears and do the work that needs to be done, otherwise you are flushing your time and money down the toilet. Your loved ones will not come forward front and center if there is still anger, or unresolved bitterness or ill intent on your part. I don’t know if it is a form of protection for me, so I don’t get hit will all of that, or if it because there is no resolve.
One of my dearest friends was the HR Director for a very famous Psychic Hotline for phone readings. She recently told me how glad she was that I never went to work for them doing readings over the phone. I had turned down a position recruiting and screening psychics seeking employment with them in a region of the South Eastern United States. She stated that it was unbelievable the high rate number of mediums that had died from cancer.
I knew that as I sat there in front of the man who arrived an hour late, the man I didn’t want to read for from the beginning, the man that my 18 year old grand daughter who lives a thousand miles away told me up front before he arrived he wasn’t going to pay me, that it was a bad experience. He said “No” to everything. I knew I wasn’t going to take his money. At the end of the hour he started validating so much of what he had said “No” to. I am reminded of the television star Mr. T with all the gold necklaces and the Mohawk hair cut that made the line famous “I pity the fool…”. I pity the fool that comes in and plays games with the nonphysical.
What I do know for sure is that he needed to hear from his Dad. I had spent a lot of time telling him there was unresolved issues that were important to him and we needed to go directly to those issues and speak to his Dad about them. His Dad came through wearing a fedora hat. My client admitted at the end of the visit that he did have unspoken words of emotional upset and discord that should be shared, however the client had lied to me the entire time of his visit. He wasn’t going to come clean now with his Dad so he shifted gears. He then went on to ask me questions about should he sell his house and a number of other things regarding money. I patiently answered his questions and after an hour and a half of “getting no where” in his words I kindly walked him out. I apologized we didn’t accomplish all that he had hoped to accomplish. There was no money exchanged. Standing at the door he asked “You don’t want anything?” I said “I just want you to be happy.” He walked away and I closed the door.
My intent in writing this was to say “Do not play games with God.” You may play games with me and use my time that I allow you to use, but please open your heart and be ready to do the work that needs to be done when you are thinking you want messages from your loved ones. This is a healing work. I have had counselors tell me that I accomplished more in two hours than they had in two years. Once again this isn’t about me, but it is about you. Your loved ones are ready, willing and able to communicate with you when you are ready.